Actually!! You know those frames that I posted about before that I saw at the fayre that are see through? I think I'll use them because I seriously love them! And I could press some flowers to put in the middle?
Also good news concerning the financial situation, my fiance is getting a raise in his new job and it was already higher paying than his last one so it will essentially cover the benefits I've lost out on he'll just have to send me an "allowance" every month. I'm genuinely so lucky to have him he works so hard for our family.
I just thought I'd do a bit of a transparent post about my health since its mental health awareness week.
A lot of my posts will seem erratic and impulsive and not well thought through and often contradictory. I think one thing that sucks about being mental is that I'm so *obviously* mental I can't hide it. And of my 3 official diagnoses (BPD, depression and anxiety) I think it's the BPD that comes through most obviously. I flit between extreme highs and extreme depressive lows like multiple times in a day. I have no idea how to regulate my emotions. If I feel something I feel it so strongly. And while that means that I love really hard (I'm actually polyamorous I have so much love to give!) and can feel the most insane joy it also means that when things happen like the benefits being rejected I can't cope with it and I can't see a way out and my brain goes straight to worse case scenario and that's it that's what's going to happen. It makes me impulsive because I think "good this will make me happy but I need it now because I don't know how long the happiness will last!"
It's honestly so exhausting because as well the anxiety makes me care so so much about how people perceive me.
So yeah that's why I seem crazy a lot... Because I am lol
Massive respect to you writing that post, and thank you. Your knowledge of yourself and your mental health is actually really heartening. Mental health is something we should all be aware of, diagnosed or undiagnosed so your post is a great highlight.
Plus, your obvious creativity probably comes in part from the extremes - every cloud has a silver lining right!?
Massive respect for that post! If more people were able to share their situations so open and honestly I think we'd be in a much better please regarding mental health as people would understand it much better.
On another note, you may have seen but Helen225 (I think) was selling some games recently if you wanted to save a bit of money.
Thanks for the lovely messages it means a lot to me!
So I think I've found the right bra. I won't need one with my mori lee fishtail but when u change into the skirt and lace crop top I'll need a bra so I think I'll get this one and just stitch on see through straps for extra support. I'm not sure what knickers to wear but I'll probably just get some nice French knickers.
I had this idea to add that extra bit of whimsy. The venue is beautiful but it's all wood, brick and gravel/concrete and I'd love it to be a bit more green and natural. We recently bought a roll of astroturf from b&m for the garden for only £30 and cut lengthways it would be the perfect length for an aisle runner! I tried to find a picture online and this is the only one I could find but I think it would really pretty outside in a barn!
So my maids chose their own dresses, these are the 2 so far. My MOH is still deciding because she doesn't want to wear yellow so we're thinking about what the best colour is but it'll probably be gold :)
This is my sisters - it doesn't come with a belt though and she's buying a petticoat separately. Not sure if she'll get a white one or go for something colourful yet but we'll see! Also not sure what she'll do for a belt
And this is my best friends. She's bought it in white but we're going to dye it yellow so I've edited it seamlessly to show what it'll be like lol
However she's just lost 10kg in 3 weeks and is now dangerousl thin so who knows if it'll even fit in a year :(
They've all said they like the idea of the floral hoop bouquets but should I buy them accessories as well? What kind of accessories would I get to go with all the different dresses? Or should I just let them wear whatever accessories they'd like?
I've found my dream ring. I have my granny's 9ct gold wedding band which I was planning on having reshaped into something similar but I'm not sure any more.
The ring is lovely! I'm also planning on using my granny's ring to have something made as I'd love to have the extra meaning. You could definitely have your granny's made into something similar to that though if you wanted!